“Okay, so I apparently can’t enter a gym and not try to kill myself. It’s a blessing and a curse. I’m amped right now though. AMPED. I FREAKING LOVE WORKING OUT. LIKE I LITERALLY WANT TO YELL I’M SO AMPED.” ~ a text from me to B, the head of the Granger Fitness Fam, after two weeks out of the gym from a back injury.
I’ve always been someone who loves to move. I’ve heard my mother’s nightmare stories of endlessly attempting to keep me entertained. I started playing sports in kindergarten (green team, number 6, t-ball, thankyouverymuch). And, I couldn’t go an off-season without running the halls of my high school. I lasted maybe two weeks after graduating from the lovely JL high before I was physically so bored that I NEEDED to move. My childhood movement quickly evolved into a full-blown fitness addiction. I love the gym. I love seeing how drenched in sweat I can get. I love running until my side is cramping and then upping the speed. You’re probably thinking I’m one of those crazy health nut people, and you aren’t wrong.
But here’s the caveat, the subtle facet that makes the insanity completely sane: it’s not the physical pain from being out of breath or the sweat dripping into my eyes that I love, it’s the sense of accomplishment in being able to mentally make myself do what my physical body doesn’t feel like it can; the knowing that if my mind believes that I am limitless then my body will be.
Exercise has become a part of my every day life. The physical sensations alone are enough to push me to work. Post workout, the mind-body connection is heightened. My heart feels open and I’m aware of my pulse. My chest feels deep. Each breath feels gratifying, like it’s nourishing my body to recuperate. My muscles are exhausted but awake and I feel capable, resilient, limitless. I work out when I feel good and when I don’t, when I’m completely in my head and when I’m calm, when I’m angry and frustrated and need to work something out mentally, when I’m seeing the returns in muscle definition and when I don’t. Movement has become an integral part of my physical existence. It lives as part of me during on days and off days. My structured workout plan takes the shape of free movement during the weekends: stretching, golfing, hikes, dog walks, bike rides, and playing. Off days are spent combining the two loves to reach a grounding center: movement and nature.
Movement is completely integrated not only into the external facets, but into my internal, emotional and mental wellness too. When breakthroughs occur in those more internal aspects, I feel a physical release occur in my chest. It’s as though trapped stagnant energy has welled up and literally broken through to be expelled. I must move to fully release it from my body. Physical exercise is linked to mental work. When anger or frustration strikes, allowing yourself to take it out on your body in a productive and healthy way is much better than sitting with it in your mind and allowing it to build. I gain mental clarity in movement. Sweating, lifting, running—they all equal a release of the negative energy that has been stuck and a greater sense of unwound thoughts and feelings. I move to be free from what I have been working through, what has been burying me. The ability to give the mind focus while everything else feels like chaos is a beautiful faction of healing.
Move in anyway that feels good in your body and your mind. Place focus on how your movement fills your physical body with sensations that bring you light. Give gratitude to the impact movement in any form has on your heart and mind. With these intentions, watch as movement evolves into a part of your life that is as natural as sleeping. Feeling good and connected to yourself is a limitless space. Push yourself to take a step to grow in this area.
Your life will transform with your body and mind leading the way unimpeded, limitless.